I'll update later. I'm just tired out.

Brushing up on makeup, woo, am I rusty or what? :-/

I've been catching up on reading. Hopefully I'll be able to finish reading my goal of 25 books. I know, I'm blogging about random things, but finally no more whining from me. Ha ha.

I want to escape to the seaside. woo.

Well, how's this for a "normal" teenage girl? Makeup. Before all this anger, I actually liked makeup. Not drag queen - esque make up, where you pile it on - but realllllllllllllll natural makeup. I'm going to get back into that, and see where it takes me. I've made a lot of errors in life already, so what's another one going to do to me? Fuck it. I've been looking like shit lately, because of my mood swings. So maybe gaining some confidence back will make me happier. I hope so.

Willow Wavers in Happiness ~

I've been chasing, looking, searching for me. These past few days, I've been feeling confused and lost. I don't know who I am anymore, who am I? I thought I found myself, but I was blind. This is not me. I'm somewhere else, maybe I'm happier there. Maybe my life is better there, maybe...there's a way for me to actually be there. To be happy and smile once more, that's all I need to survive. I've been putting this front up for so long, I don't know the difference any more. That's what happens when you've been pretending, because you start to believe so much in it that you actually think that that's it.

I wish I could turn back the clock, and take away all the mistakes I've made in life. Would I be any happier than I am now? Considering that I've been feeling like shit the past few weeks, I think I would be happier if I wiped clean all the mistakes in my life. All the years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds, I wish I could rewind them all and pause when I was the most happy. All those wasted time, spent chasing who I thought was me.

I can't stand life anymore. No, I can't stand being in my own skin - I don't understand myself, I don't understand the things I do, say, feel. Wtfuck is wrong with me?

Still editing, so the navigation will be up soon.

Willow Withers away in the Breeze.

I've been online for awhile, reading manga/manhwa(s). I enjoy doing that because I can't afford to buy 4+ volumes of a manga that costs $10.99 - I'm not built with money people. Anyways I finished reading a couple of mangas, and to be truthful most of them were quite cheesy. However I fell in love with a couple: Blooming/Bring it On, Wall Flower. However Blooming is licensed so it can't be redistributed anymore. Gah, and Wall Flower's ch. 79 hasn't been uploaded & translated yet, so yeah...I have to be patient.

Hmph, watched the Olympics. I loved the opening, it made me - breathless. All the majestic colors, the theme, all the people there. It was just amazing.

Blog later. Ahaha.

Olympics started. Woo, watching the game as of right now. Will be back to blog. Or maybe not. Haha.

Bless you all,
Willow Blows in the Breeze!

I'll blog about the trip later. Night.

So lately I've been feeling sort of down, & I have no idea why. Gah - my life seems so complicated, but at the same time I feel happy...does any of this make any sense? I doubt it. One minute I'm feeling happy then the next I just want to lock my door, and scream at the top of my lungs. Maybe I'm just so frustrated with being cooped up in the house. I don't know. I'm hoping things will get better.

Now onto other new-ish news...? I'm going to be going up to the cabin in a small quaint town north of where I live with my family for about a week. So I won't be able to update as there are no electricity up there. Yep, you heard it - no phones (actual phones), tv, computer, etc. I mean we have electricity, we just can't use it - the town is trying to reduce Co2, so we can only our lights/electricity on for 5 hours each day. I can't wait to go up there, swimming is going to be fantastic!

Not much to blog about - just that I haven't been able to do much lately. I just haven't been in the "mood." Life's just one stinking pot hole. Sorry if I'm depressing you guys. I just don't KNOW wth to say anymore to make my life any easier. SDFJAKLJDFADFKAJDVMAKJSDF.

Onto better news, I guess. No parents for a friggn' weekend. My mom went to Kansas with her boyfriend. So it's just us, cool siblings. Kay KAY. That's about it. dkfjalf.,ajvlkasd SUckasjdirvm areal/. kjfd

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I couldn't help myself, so I indulged in some guilty online shopping. It just so happened that I had my "emergency" credit card with me. And I was going to buy some supplies for school with it, but o well. It'll have to wait, mum gave me the card like 2 years ago and I haven't touched it til now. So hurray. The clothes were ultra expensive, the bill came out over $100. When the credit card bill comes in, mum's gonna blow.

Sam called me yesterday and told me that she & Bryan broke up. So most of my time yesterday was spent talking on the phone...wait scratch that, most of my time yesterday was spent listening to Sam talking about her sad sad sad break up. Anyways after listening to her whine and moan and cry about her loss, she invited me to come over. DECLINE. Obviously she was just gonna moan, bitch, and cry all over again about her breakup. Instead I went over to Ashley's house, haven't seen her for awhile. So I thought why not? It was a completely bad idea! Ashley had over a couple of her "cool" friends, so they were just on the computer looking for guys to call and hook up with. I don't know what happened to all of my friends. Time changes everything. We used to all play tag, or just talk, but now our life is consumed of materialistic crap. Boyfriends. Sex. And peer pressure. Ahh, the young and the innocent.

I'm gonna go cry.

My theatre class planned to go to watch a play today. TODAY!! But I didn't want to go because we were going to have a debate TODAY for History. Buttttt, my dumbass teacher decides to not show up. UM, EXCUSE ME?! I missed going on a FIELD TRIP to watch a documentary about Richard Sears? Hell to the no! I am so fucking pissed off. FAODSJFUOIUAERJAUROEAKDJURAJDFKJA.

Okay RANT over, for now.

Talk to y'all laters.

1) I do not have the time to help someone with FTP, even if they aren't use to it.
2) Hosting someone is like babysitting - which I hate.
3) Busy busy busy.
4) Hostees usually abuse the rights that are given to them.

Meaning that this site will now officially become my PORTFOLIO/BLOG. Yeah-ya. I'll add everything up later it's like 12 am right now.

Went over to Sam's house yesterday, we didn't do much. Her boyfriend came over so they were practically making out the whole time. Ick. Anyways slept over at her house, we watched Must Love Dogs. Which was an okay movie, thought it would have been better. Bleh, oh well. Mum came to pick me up in the morning, and then we went shopping. Well, mum went shopping for kitchen supplies. Yeah, sounds like fun huh? It took like 2 hours for her to finish shopping, w00.

Well with that I'm off.

I am no longer accepting/having affiliation with people. No more. It cease to exist. Absolutely none, zip, yada yada yada. The reason for this is simply because....DRUM ROLLLLLLL. I really do not have the time to check daily for new blog posts and comment. Sorry everyone, especially to my affiliates who I know have been very nice about me not following their rules.

Another new thing I've added is HOSTING. Yep starting today this site will only be used for hosting, and as my portfolio (if I'm not too lazy). I'm only accepting NEWBS for hosting, or to anyone who really wants it. To anyone who is in desperate need for a very cool host please apply now. But please READ the rules, and after reading it, please read it again. If you don't want to use a shitty free builder website that can't help you expand your knowledge of HTML then come to me my fellow friends.

So it's nice now to be actually blogging, yah I know it's almost been a month since I've blogged, haha. Kay let's get to the juicy stuff shall we? Went over to Sandy's house on Tuesday, she had a couple of guys over and they were all wrestling in the basement. Can you say cheap-os? haha. Anyways while they were wrestling Sandy and I went to her room and recorded ourselves singing to Mariah Carey's Touch my Body. We sounded so bad, but it was hilarious. Midway through listening to ourselves the boys came up and we all decided to improvise a song together. There were a lot of swear words, so posting them up wouldn't be PG rated.

Then on Wednesday I walked my ass all the way to Lynda's house, which is about 3 miles away because Toby was being a donkey and wouldn't drive me. When I arrived Lynda and I ordered pizzas and watched ANTM and some movies on DVD. It was fun, plus mum came to pick me up so I didn't have to walk back! yay.

Adieu. Adieu. Parting is such sweet sorrow.